Monday, 16 November 2015

Shedding the Crystal Tears

5 years in the School of Nursing, years of great drama years of pure madness, years of struggle, hustle and bustle. We joined this noble college as the cream de la cream, the best of the best, the top of the society. They called us ‘daktari’ but I wish they knew what we go through to get to this level where we are now? It all started with a new life, a new set of people. I came to the city, I, a village ambassador, with me I carried a sack of maize, a smaller sack of beans and of cause a bag of potatoes. Life in Nairobi is expensive they said. On that day my parents sent me to the city, they rallied a facial expression of over astonishment with exceeding excitement and robust of energy comparing not to the tranquility of the swaying banana leaves. Mum said, this is from God, by God and of God. The whole village organized a send off ceremony, a ceremony befitting a delegate, a representative of the village in the university, the village hero. Anyway, to cut the long story short, we joined the university and that is where the rain started beating us. What happened? You really want to know? 

First it was the admission day, confusion was palpable in the air. I met people from everywhere, speaking all languages, from all walks of life as they say. It was the first time I was meeting people who talked in languages I did no understand. We were given orientation, an orientation befitting a confused first year. What was funny was that we were oriented by so many groups of people who were telling us many different things at the same time and yet expecting us to understand all of it. What was meant to give us direction in our new home turned out to be even a greater source of confusion. Fortunately, we went through this and came out alive. The classes started, and first it was anatomy. Imagine being taken trough benches filled with cadavers and you are told you will be with them for the next 44 weeks! We had mixed reactions, but we came out alive. I remember this professor who really harassed us, first he asked me, where the posterior nucal line was, where the hell did I know this Prof? Then he asked about the brachial plexus, which to me sounded like breki ya lexus...poor boy. Prof looked at me and said sympathetically, "now let me tell you something, common things occur commonly and that is why when you see a spotted animal outside the anatomy lab, it is most likely to be a cat and not a leopard." Then he asks another lady the number of  cervical vertebra  in the neck of a human being, which she surprisingly answers correctly only to be asked the number of cervical vertebra are in a giraffe...really Prof!

The program and schedules were hectic; the fat egos of once known academic giants were depleted. All over sudden, it was possible to score low marks, marks that were of equivalence to Kenya shillings that could not purchase half a loaf, marks that were below sea level. The tide had changed and the waves were now rolling just to the bare minimum. The year ended, the results came and we had passed, no, we had satisfied that board of examiners. I know we only had a fifty, but do I say. Then we got to the second year, the worst year of my academic life. First I just wonder why we had to stay in Main campus and have our classes in KNH. We fought each morning for the school bus. Just imagine a 62 seatter bus currying over 200 students...this bus was never full until it was full. Imagine waking up at 7:28AM and the bus is leaving at 7:30...but funny enough within 2 minutes we were able to take breakfast, take a shower, clean up yourself and tidy up the room and catch the bus. We performed miracles I tell you. The second year was worse than the whole of primary and secondary school combined. imagine doing pharmacology, where you are expected to know 10,000 plus drugs with their generic and trade names, their history, mechanism of action, pharmacokinetics and pharmacodynamics, adverse effects, drug interactions and their contraindications. And if you thought it was a joke, they would bring all this in an exam. Then Microbiology...where on earth did microorganisms come from? I remember the spot exam, the horror movie series of one minute episode...wah!, we came out alive. 

In 3rd year, we had learnt to survive, we developed some thick skin. We had deepened friendship and enjoyed fellowship. Some of us started enjoying some essential needs and others started having a friend, note, not any other friend, but that one special friend, that single one. In medical schools, we do zero grazing they said. People started coming to class in pairs. Third year and fourth year were not so much drama compared to second year. one thing that made us blow up our heads in the fourth year was this research thing...who said we must do research who? but eventually survived and came out alive. we are now shedding tears of joy, after successfully satisfying a series of 4 boards of examiners, of 44 weeks episode. the 8-4-4 has come to an end. what next now? 

Tuesday, 10 February 2015

FEBRUARY....THE MONTH OF LOVE

Love is in the air, and everybody is speaking about it. I hear friends complain that true love doesn't exist but i'm left to wonder what all this bustle and hustle is for. Red is the color, chocolates are running out of stoke in supermarket shelves, red roses are undergoing rapid deforestation but just for this month. my TV screen is all red, all adverts must have an element of love attached to it. Every advert I hear over the radio must start with the cliche' "this month of love...." Really, can you now convince me that true love does not exist?, that's a lie.
       Love is a long story, but its after I loved and lost that that I learnt to respect the strength of a woman. King Edward of the Khoi-san kingdom gave up his kingdom in Cape Town during the colonial times and walked on foot up to Alexandria in Egypt all in the name of love.William Shakespeare lived all his life by just writing about this thing love. Samson Manoa, the strongest man to have ever existed was brought down by a woman all because of love. David the son of Jesse, the forefather of Jesus Christ, a King of Israel-a God chosen nation, a man after God's own heart (so says Paul in The Acts of Apostles), was brought down by a woman, all in the name of love.
      What is love, I ask? Read through the Muslim Quaran, there are 15 suras that speak about this love (hubb-7 times, mawadda-5 times and interpretive inserts-3 times). In the Hindu Gittur, read through the dramatization of the great mahabaratan and the ramayana, its all about love. Read through the Bible, the sermon on the mount, Christ says "and now only three things are left, faith, hope and love, but the greatest of them all is love. This thing love must be very powerful. and so, in the name of love, a man will leave his father and mother, and a woman will leave her father and mother. The two shall become one...all in the name of love.
     Music has been sang all about love, all genres, bongo, reggae, ragga, dance hall, taarab, ohangla, mugithi...even the funda-mentos were realized because of love. love has been spoken everywhere. If still you think love doesn't exist, then I guess you must be from another planet. Love is as powerful as death, it bursts out into flames and burns with a ragging fire, water can never put it out nor even flood. Love is an affair of the heart, a mutual development between two willing souls that come together for a common goal. Love is a game of soccer, where before the last whistle blows you can never tell who the winner is. Love is a gamble, and one must know the rules of gambling before getting into the game. You must know when to fold up, know when to hold on, know when to walk away and know when when to run. Love is a race, you don't run fast, you will be trampled on and before you realize it, you will be nothing but broken eggs.
     All said and done, its better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. Love is the greatest commandment. Love God your God with all you might, strength.....and love your neighbor as you love yourselves. But just remember, love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 
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Tuesday, 9 December 2014

FINALLY A FINALIST

The year started on a low note. Classes were quater to half full compared to second year where classes  were too full. The year would be a joy ride, we thought. Very few things were taken very seriously. I can't rember attending the first several classes, but in the end I acquired momentum.
I just want to recal afew things that traspired through the year. An encounter with the no nonsense, all or none theatre nurse call her madam Lilian. I remember her explaining the role of a scrub nurse..."The surgion told me hold here, I did. Then hold here, I did. Now with both hands I did the holding. Then he told me, give me a curved artery...seriously!!, am I an octopus??, I asked...prais the Lord"
Then came...the mental health nurse, Carpenito, Nanda, Author wa Manual, Nursing process, NCK Mwenyewe. I'll call her The lady in a pegiot. "Now this school is funny..do they know I'm not a renal nurse?, now give me three priority
Nursing diagnosis according to carpenito..." I wish I could use her voice tone to write this.
Then another mental health case, this guy should be in mathari. Should I call him Anto? Yes. This is the only guy who managed to teach 706, I mean seven hundred and six slides in one lecture, DSM4, DSM4-TR, DSM5, DSM.., ICD10. I guess he has Fucktitious disorder, F*** with an 'A' not a 'U' idiot or maybe he has trikisdecaphobia or maybe echolalia or I think he has no insight. But above all, he makes life very simple "....a good lady like Chege can't fail you. But  kwa medsurg, kuna ma sadists..."
Then here come Dr Bilasio..this guy has verbal diarrhoea plus circumstantiality and tangentiality. He teaches like Ten Teachers. His classes did not end untill they ended. "...you must be a profisient midwife. When you see any pervaginal bleeding, NO DIGITAL EXAM. Before I get far, I recall this new comer in the staffroom. I guess the anatomist who defined the gynaecoid pelvis used her as an example. She changed the mood in every obs class. I rember her saying that to much exercise can cause amenorrhea. I feel we should try that as method of family planning. 30 laps every morning, lunch time and evening, then you'll not need all these hormones in the name of contraceptives. That's my research topic next year. The year was full of drama each day. Ranging from signing for 8 lectures in one sitting, lecturers who could not speak but now they have pHDs to assignments that were never found in books nor google or wikipedia. Whether you went to class with bottoms up or in a bamako initiative, the comumity health lectures would not happen. Then came the ISO, this was the climax. Drama ensued afterwards and so much had to happen. Then letters were written and the boss herself had to come to class to cool the furnase. Before I leave the classroom comedy I cannot foget the rural folk, who came to teach but instead saw stars after an encounter with the lady in black. Then came this man who made me say "...please teacher may I go to the toilet" nkt nkt, by the way I didn't take that kindly. With all the pendagogy, he still aforded to give us 88 paged pdf that sent some of us into a vigil revision mode. Then came this Clinical psychologist...this man was just so amazing. Can't describe him much........ Whatch out for part two

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Thursday, 27 November 2014

YOU ARE NOT A MONK

This is the best story I've ever read..........
A man is driving down the road and
breaks down near a monastery. He goes
to the monastery, knocks on the door,
and says, “My car broke down.Do you
think I could stay the night?”The monks
graciously accept him, feed him dinner,
and even fix his car. As the man falls
asleep that night, he hears a strange
sound. The next morning, he asks the
monks what the sound was.”We can’t tell
you. You’re not a monk” they
respond.The man is disappointed but
thanks them anyway and continues on his
trip.Several years later the same man
breaks down in front of the same
monastery. The monks again accept him,
feed him, and even fix his car.That night,
he hears the same strange noise that he
had heard years earlier.The next morning
he again asks what it is, and again the
monks reply,”We can’t tell you. You’re
not a monk.” The man says, “All right, all
right.I’m dying to know. If the only way I
can find out the source of that sound is to
become a monk, tell me how do I
become amonk?” “You must travel the
earth and tell us how many blades of
grass there are and the exact number of
sand pebbles.When you find these
numbers, you will becom a monk,” they
reply. The man sets about his task.Many
years later he returns and knocks on the
door of the monastery. “I have traveled
the earth and have found what you asked
for. There are145,236,284,232 blades of
grass and 231,281,219,999,129,382 sand
pebbles on the earth.””Congratulations!”
the monks reply. “You are now a monk.
We will now show you the way to the
sound.”The monks proceed to lead the
man to a wooden door, where the
headmonk says, “The sound is behind that
door.”The man reaches for the knob, but
cannot open it because the door is
locked.”Really funny,” he says,”May I
have the key please?”The monks give him
the key and he opens the door. Behind
the wooden door is another door made of
stone. The monks give him the key to this
door too, and he opens it-only to find a
door made of ruby. He asks for,and
receives another key from the monks.
But behind that door is another door, this
one made of sapphire. On and on this
went until the man had gone through
doors of emerald, silver, topaz,and
amethyst. Finally the man is relieved to
hear the monks say, “This is the last key
to the last door.”He unlocks the door,
turns the knob, and behind that door he is
amazed to find the source of that strange
sound.
But I can’t tell you what it is because
you’re not a monk.